so i have kinda been looking for a therapist but then i get all paranoid and have to go home and hide... its not so good... im scared to walk down the street partly because i think someone is watching me but mainly becuase i dont know whats real or not... i would ask my boyfriend to come with me but he needs to sleep during the day, and i dont want to drag him down this path again... i think im begining to hate myself, and the schizophrenia, as for the personalities they dont bother me so much but still i know they are there and i fight them... my never ending battle... sometimes they win and then im lost... perhaps one day i will overcome it all.