I really did not intend to hurt your feelings. Any relationship is challanging. I think it's all about give and take. My husband and I were just discussing different decisions that we've made along the way that at first glance we'd change. But if we had not experienced the hard times our marriage would never have grown as strong as it is today. We wouldn't appreciate each other nearly as much.

I know that this is a very difficult time for you, but if Karen was not able to see beyond the problems to see the person you are inside, she's not worth it. My husband deals with these issues on a daily basis too. I am bipolar as well. I have been unable to work for the last several years. I understand you not wanting to apply for SSI. The money would definately be helpful, but it is like giving up on myself and admitting defeat. Not to mention the thought of dealing with government red tape is enough to bring on a full-blown anxiety attack in itself.

I do hope you find a partner that is worthy of you.