It's 3am and I can't sleep! Actually, I finally slept for a little while but then had a dream I wanted to write down, so here I am.

Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU to everyone for validating my anger. I am not used to being angry, and if I am I turn it on myself...but this time, feeling anger feels like the "right" thing to feel and I do feel like I have it directed at the right person (not me!!). I see T in 6 hours, so I guess I will be able to start working this out.

I have no idea how to multi-quote and I'm kind of out of it but...sunny, yes, she IS actually a T. My T says she is a GOOD T.?!?!?! I really don't know what happened... ha, or even if my T thinks she is a good T anymore!

I e-mailed her last night and told her I was angry, and asked if we could e-mail about it - she said I could e-mail her but she wouldn't e-mail back and we could talk next time we see each other in person. Whatever.

Well, it just sucks. I am going to try to do what Spotted Owl said and let my anger give me a voice. I already feel myself stuffing it, and I do think I will re-read all of this before I see T tomorrow. I'm way too good at stuffing my feelings.

I'm going to try to get some sleep. The things everyone said here were really, really helpful.... more than you can imagine. Thanks...