Hi everybody.

It seems like the during the week when i need to work I am functional, I mean I can make it to work and do my job without anybody suspecting that something might be wrong. But as soon as I get home I find there is nothing of value that I want to do. Reading used to be pleasurable but isn't anymore. I even read a whole textbook for school but the second one just doesn't interest me. I love to paint but have no heart for it. I like watching Law and Order SVU but sometimes I can't even do that. So I just lay in bed listening to the same 45 second loop of music until I drift off to sleep.

I'm on wellbutrin XL, Effexor XR, Topamax and Abilify and nothing seems to be getting better. Nothing ever seems to interest me. Apart from school which is starting again in three weeks. I can't wait, finally some meaning to my life. But I feel like this isn't really depression, even though I know all about anhedonia. I feel like I'm just some lazy person because if it were depression the meds would be working and I'd be full of life and energy. But, not so.

I don't know what to do anymore, try different meds? ?? I just don't know.