molly, I've read a bunch of posts of yours here and ther eover time, this one ... I can completely relate to because I'm basically in the same spot... Horrible nightmarish dreams that I wake up to in the morning, making me freak out the rest of the day because all my "coping energy" is spent on the dream rather than my actual life. And needing a job but not getting one yet.

Just letting you know I'm here, sending you lots of hugs, and hoping we can both make it through