Wow,
Thanks everyone! I've had 2 realatively low stress sessions in a row. At the start of my session this week my T and I were talking about how we've both noted a difference. Great right, right. The we moved into a little tougher topic..an experience I had recently at professional workshop. During this workshop, I actually voluneered to be a model during a demonstration that involved touch. HUGH, very uncharacteristic for me! So we were discussing this and of course my anxiety started to rise, especially since my T is asking probing questions and pressing me to verbalize the experience.I haven't figure out yet how to verbalize the details and separate myself from feeling them. (I know..that is probably why my T uses that technique with me--because when I'm actually being touched I kind of mentally check out. We are kind of working on getting me to not to be so quick to check out)

Anyway back to the authentic self thing...So during this part of the session I start feeling the weight on the chest. My T then asks "Why did you volunteer?" Now,my authentic self has a spiritual connection thing going on at the moment but I kind of don't go there with others. So I'm sitting on the couch and I don't want to say "It was a soul-directive" and jump into explaining what was really happening in my head when I volunteered Mouth sensors vetoed that voice. So I said "Because professionally, it was a good move."

Well after that the anxiety went up, the buzzing in my head started, and it was downhill from there. I must have pissed off my authentic self. She left the room and I in scrammble mode trying look for external clues to CORRECTLY answer internal questions.