I am new without having written very many posts. But I read yours, and would like to say I send you good thoughts with a hug. I could ask you if your comfortable with the doctor. For me the doctor means everything. Regardless, who the heck does like female proceedures. It's just a down right, I mean feet up, and can't hide anything sort of nightmare...so be nice to yourself. Bet you can't find another female who doesn't feel like you. Pat yourself on the back for taking care of yourself. Your getting the boil checked. And the heck with over-weight...we are human. And I know I'm not ever going to be skinny again!!! Be gentle with yourself. Sincerely, California grandma..Agape4us