Hi sweetie, I had my first manic episode in 2007 and ended up in hospital. I can't recall hurting anyone, physically(though I wanted to) or emotionally but I know my partner really suffered and he was scared for me. I remember feeling slightly embarrassed by my behaviour at work but my colleagues where very understanding and it was actually them that got me into hospital!

I was just a maniac and very delusional. I had no idea. I am very intolerant of people especially idiots so I didn't feel I needed to explain myself to anyone after the fact. I didn't hurt anyone or break the law so what do I need to feel guilty about? I wasn't well.

The depression after was absolutely shattering while I waited for my meds to kick in. There is nothing abnormal about how you feel about your husbands condition. My partner went through the same thing. It is terrifying.

Good luck........things improve day by day......bit by bit.