i'm having such mixed feelings right now.

part of me is happy because im starting my meds now and im on the road to recovery. ive been waiting for this day for so long...and its finally here

but, part of me is sad and upset. i just want to be normal again. i wish i didnt have to take meds to make me happy i just want my old happy self back.....grrrr

also, im sorry for always posting. i feel like my problems are nothing compared to other people on here who really need the help. and im just rambling about nothing to yall. im sorry