It really sucks the things we must do to pay the bills. When I was a kid there were these predictions that the world of the future (today) would be run by robots and people would have nothing but leisure and luxury. HA! They lied! Bastards!

Having to supress your "me" in order to cope with work seems pretty typical. There are not very many jobs where people don't sacrifice a big chunk of who they are just to get by day to day. My 20 year old son refuses to work for the Man and supports himself playing music on the street. He wants to do that because music is who he IS. He gets by and you think he should be happy with that. No. He is pissed because he has to play many hours every day no matter the weather, has no security, is totally dependant on other's generosity and the work is ruining the joy of playing.

The way you might be free to be true to yourself could be winning the lottery. That's no guarantee either.

Wherever you go, there you are