Stumpy,
I am really sorry that you have been through so much to. I think back to when I was a child and for me it was horrible but I am not sure I even let that sink in when I was younger. I was pretty numb for the most part, lived in total denial. Working on it now s*cks. Reality kicking in is making things much harder at the moment.

Sittingatwatersedge,
Thank you for sharing your experience, it sounds like you worked really hard at putting yours together. Even gave me a few ideas because I really had no idea where to start. To look back and discover the past patterns I imagine would be very helpful when looking at todays behaviors as well.
Thanks

I want to thank all of you for your input and support. Your right, if I can't do it, I can't. I want to do this work and am hoping that I can but knowing that I don't have to do it right then relieves some of the stress of having to tell. Its probably best to let it come as it may.

I liked the idea of putting it out there though, challenging myself so to speak. My T looked at me after I told her I would share the first memory and said I am here and I will be here for you next week. Meaning what I say is not going to scare her away. That is a big fear that I have in sharing my story, which is why I don't share it with my friends.