*Sigh* I'm so ill today, but I forced myself to come to college.. i feel sick, I'm weak, I'm tired, crying my eyes out at every opportunity I get and I just.. I feel so.. Lost If I told anyone how ill I feel, they'd force me to go home, but I can;t go home because I won't get my EMA. Connor'd blame me for not getting up on time this morning, because my phone feel out from under my pillow, so i didn't hear my alarm going off. I broke down just after he came off the phone to me, saying don't get annoyed with him because I woke up late. I wasn't getting annoyed, I was in the midst of brushing my teeth, I was p*ssed off at myself for getting up late.

I so need a warm, comforting cuddle right now but no-one will give that to me because.. As it seems to me.. no-one likes me.. And now I'm going to get asked about whether I've written my lyrics for the song in the band I'm working in for improvisation and I haven't done anymore and they're probably going to say they're s**t and I'm panicking and all over the place.

i think I'm gonna be sick if I keep on like this.