I find that I often lie about anything that seems to be a symptom of the bipolar. Actually, I'm starting to figure out the difference between what I can and can't control, based on that.

Just yesterday I lied to my bf and told him that I did go into work for a couple of hours... but really I didn't even get out of bed until around 5 pm. Immediately I felt ashamed, but I still haven't gotten the courage to tell the truth. The solutions seem so simple when it's someone else who is asking for advice. Anyway, I'm pretty sure that he knows the truth, and all I can say is that he is a saint.

I have lied about bigger things too to past boyfriends, but I am trying VERY hard not to do it this time. He is so willing to work with me and deal with this that I feel totally awful lying to him about even the smallest thing.

I am a strong believer in honesty and open communication in all types of relationships, so the guilt comes from me being so hypocritical about this. I do understand how hard it is to come clean, and the guilt just winds up pushing you down further and deeper into the lie.