T and I put a ridiculous amount of work until our relationship....and I do think it's worth it. I feel so secure and loved and I feel like it's probably a feeling that children (in safe families) have that I missed out on. Just knowing that there is someone who thinks I am okay just how I am and who will listen to whatever I have to say and who won't abandon me or hurt me is so huge and so comforting. It's such a good feeling, but it took a lot of work to get here. (see my 23849324832947 other posts!! lol)

And I see how my work in the therapy relationship is starting to spill over into my other relationships. I do feel more empowered, and more sure of myself. Not 100% of the time, by any means, but for me to feel that way at all is HUGE. Believe me, I went into therapy with my tail between my legs, with my head and my heart and my soul full of secrets I thought were too terrible to tell, with my only "role" in life being the role of "caretaker" and "helper" and even "doormat". I can see that changing, slowly but surely.

It IS hard work though, and not much fun a lot of the time.... Hang in there, EF