Well, here's the weird part--it's not like I have a conscious side of me that has always said it would be bad to do (reveal vulnerability). I just didn't do it, because I had done such a good job of compartmentalizing that I almost didn't know it existed inside of me. I have been taking care of myself since I was about six, so I have come to accept that you just keep plodding along and take whatever comes at you. I think the vulnerability surprised me and then the fact that I showed it surprised me even more. The more I realize it the more I think this was a turning point for me. Whoa.