I know what you're saying. Thing is, I'm not feeling good about myself. And I know that if I do somethign unbelievably stupid again, the person that will be hurt isn't me, but my friends. I, honestly, couldn't care less what happens to me, but if it hurts my dear friends I try my hardest not to.

Troubled, depressed and fighting urges seems to apply to me, even now. I got back the urge a few days ago, and it hit like a ton of bricks. Now, it's not so much of an urge, but it's more of an open option again as the past few months I've been too bloody wasted to notice I've been hurt inside. Now that I've been sober (for 10 days, and oh what hell that's been) I just want anything to kill the sudden rush of emotion again.

Gah..that's my spill for now. See y'alls around..

Kayleigh