Vett, find some strength inside of you - it is there because you are still here and posting. You are trying although it doesn't seem that way.
Take it just a day, an hour at a time like I do. Don't look so far ahead - I am not capable of doing that now. Each day that passes is an accomplishment, remember that.
I'm down in that hole with you, and it is next to impossible to come out..........sometimes you don't even feel like trying. You are still hanging on to the rope, don't let go of it.
Remember, one day, one hour at a time. PM me if you need to.
Mary Alice