Can'tRemember, I think this is fairly common. For me, I feel like when I lose my sense of self and start looking outside of me for the "correct" behaviors. Kind of like when in Rome do as the Romans.

During my session this week I was talking about an interaction with a friend. A situation occurred where she said something that wigged me out a bit. I got confused about how to intrepret the exchange and slipped into my distant, unflappable mode and when I couldn't clear up my confusion, I withdrew. I should have just taken a moment to check in with myself and the discussed my confusion with my friend. But I didn't want to get myself in a situation where I showed my confusion or risked hurting my friends feelings.