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I will try to make this cohesive...my thoughts are not exactly in order right now.

My girls are at a sleepover at karate tonight. Kaity, my 15 year old as many of you know is almost a black belt in Tang Soo Do. Her best friend used to be in karate with her, that's where they met; her name is Morgan. Morgan's father committed suicide, then her mother became addicted to drugs and died from an overdose. Kaity didn't know Morg then, this is was when Morg was 10 or 11 when her mom died. Anyway, Morg is like my daughter. She calls me mom. She was so well adjusted considering the awful things she went through. She lives with her grandparents, whom my girls call grandma and grandpa. Tori, my oldest daughter just called me from the sleepover wanting to know if I could get ahold of grandma, and Tori was crying. Kaity was on the phone with Morgan and found out Morgan tried to kill herself; or at least had the ideation. She cut herself and then wanted to and thought about going deeper, all the way. I don't have a cell phone number for grandma or for her aunt. I called the house and no one answered so I called Tori back and she said Kaity was talking to Morgan, so I had Tori talk to Morgan and I talked to Kaity, who was hysterical. She said that Morgan was ok, grandma was home. Kaity calmed down and I said I was going to leave to come get them and she said no, she wanted to stay. Matt, her karate instructor, is really close to Kaity and is going to be talking to her and will be with her. I talked to Morgan and she was fine--this happened last week, grandma knew and she is in counselling. Morg had been seperating herself from us and Kaity for a while and she started crying saying how much she missed Kaity (they don't go to the same school). I know I'm babbling, I just can't stop shaking and don't even need any one to reply because there's nothing to reply to, I just needed to get it out. I'm so scared, and scared for Kaity and Morgan and I know I can be there for them and support Morgan and let her know we love her. I just breaks my heart, though.