Well, I feel in love with a married woman 3000 miles away online. I always seem to set myself up for major hurts, and this was it. She loved chatting with me, but that's all she wanted. Me, I was so hungry for love and hit it off with her so, I fantasized that somehow it would work out for us. It didn't. I blew my top and spewed my hurt out at her, and so now I don't even have a friend to chat with. I'm AvPD. And this is how I try to fulfill the love I so desperately seek, with my fear of being close to someone.