Maybe, I just miss my dad? He passed away when I was 16, in the midst of our "relationship" that I speak of. Maybe Cameron is that last little piece that I have of a happy time before my dad passed away? Also, maybe not being "happy" the last 20 years has something to do with it.

This I hear . The wanting of someone that knew your father ....

Have you ever grieved your Fathers' passing ?

Seems ,, he would be proud of the man you grew up to become .

I have seen a "shrink", and he said that I had anxiety and depression. He gave me some pills and sent me on my way.

Sounds as if ya feel / felt >> this encounter with the " shrink " was less than what you may have hoped it would be .... all things take effort .

T/C
WMD.