((Christina))

I'd like to share some things with you, and in no way am I implying it is what you are going through...

It took me several attempts at getting sober.
I'm stubborn and hard-headed and have an Irish temper.

When I would get around the six month time is when I would start having doubts. I had been dry long enough that my numbed feelings were waking up, and it was not pleasant.
I felt raw and disappointment that it felt that way. I thought somehow that everything was going to get better Right Away.

And I felt fear. Fear about not drinking, how it would change my life--if I felt that crappy then why was being sober such a big deal.
I used alcohol and drugs to make life bearable. Without them, it was hard and cold and crappy...
It felt like I was caught in the middle. I'd come six months but when I looked at a future without drinking I couldn't see that it would get better.
Yet I didn't want to go back, either.
Confused big time...

Again, I'm not saying any of that is true of you.
I'm sharing with you that the sixth month mark was a dangerous time for me...

Peace,
Cap