HI. I havent been to this forum before. I usually stick to depression and anxiety. I have been DX'd with depression, panic disorder and OCD.
I have panic attacks, the usual kind, rapid heart beat, tingling, numbness and the whole nine yards. I am on Effexor XR so the physical aspects of my anxiety have been pretty controllable. However, when it comes to the mental aspect, I am not so in control. When I feel like this, I get very afraid that I am going "crazy" for lack of a better word. I get extremely paranoid. At times I think that my PDoc put me on meds cause the pharmaceutical companies are behind it all. When I lay down to sleep I hear conversations in my head. Not conversations that I can fully understand. It's like being in a busy lunchroom and I can hear differnet conversations and I cant really pick out just one. I dont hear people talking to me. But I get afraid of that. I have explained all this to my T and Pdoc and they both tell me that I have severe anxiety. I already know I have severe anxiety. I live it everyday. My question is, could it be more. My PDoc says I have a phobia of going insane and that plays a part in this. I'm confused and I need help. Do these symptoms resemble more then just anxiety or depression. I, was having intrusive thought. The worst kind. About hurting my youngest child. I would never do that. But my thoughts run wild and that particular thought causes me alot of guilt, anxiety and shame. What is wrong with me? I just dont understand.