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Jan 25, 2009, 03:35 PM
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Member Since: Oct 2008
Location: Notzville
Posts: 60,397
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I just wanted to say "thanks" for the words from Cap. It's as if I opened my mouth and all the words I might've said came tumbling out - right down to the Irish temper!
I'm also going to acknowledge what you said in response to a question from me...
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notz - ...it's dependent on whether or not I'm going to fully consider never drinking again or not. I'm not 100% sure at this point, truthfully.
Hey, (said with arms bent and palms pointed to the sky) the program I work says TODAY! I don't know much about tomorrow although I can tell you lots about yesterdays.
None of us in recovery sign on for a lifetime, we belly up for today and today only. Yes, it's smart to raise your head up and make plans for the ‘morrow’s but you don't have to. That’s true for anyone-AA or not. I remind myself all the time that leaning way over to fit my head safely in a snug hole is my prerogative. When the reality of how ludicrous that must look comes clear in my conscious mind, that’s when I know I’m not operating with all my cylinders!
I started sneaking “drink remains” at my parent’s many parties. I was very, very young but I discovered I would sleep better as the party got louder. I learned many abnormal behaviors were normal. I don’t think it takes much imagination to fast forward through my yesterdays. I can’t speak for you in any way, that’s your job and I support you, no-matter-what. I only suggest you look at your yesterday’s and imagine what you would like for your tomorrow’s to be. It’s on you. Be careful though, if you blink three times you'll be 50 and wonder WTH happened! 
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