Just feel sigh....No relief. Therapy is sooo hard. Homework from therapy is like good for us like we are learning so much about us but then were confused and exhausted? Even though Husband is helping too that helps! I really just feel so done....I haven't even began. I have never been good at doing anything that takes time...EVER...Therapy as i know each and everyone of you all know is years of hard work...SIGH...i just can't do this...Idon't feel well at all..I feel i know myself and (others) well then I start the doubting again and then the process starts all over again...

I am confused and it's making me crazy. My t is just so supportive and cares so much about me!! She know's how much we have to do. My system is so much more complex then she even I even began to think...it's so much to comprehend...The pressure cooker lid isn't staying down NO MORE and I am so scared...There's nothing I can do but just hang on... Sorry I just dont mean to vent and I cry and whine I am just used to having my "control" and no more can that be as my system is long over dooo to be heard and dealt with too..especially the littles who are all so vary fragile and hurting so much for attention and time..Sigh...
sorry so long
MC