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i am so angry.
i'm not okay.
Every time she screams my name I shiver.
Fear takes control of me for a minute while every secret I keep from her runs through my mind
What did she find out? Who told her what?
I think hard and carefully until I go numb and decide I don’t care.
I can’t care anymore. It takes too much out of me.
She found out one secret and didn’t give a **** why would this make any difference at all.
I can handle being yelled at, being screamed at.
That’s all she ever does
She knows I cut and grounded me
Said I’m immature and embarrassing
She doesn’t get it at all.
And maybe one of these times she will yell loud enough
Hurt me deep enough
For me to really decide it’s time
Cut as deep as I’ve been craving
And go home.
Be with a father who loves me
Who won’t ****ing molest me.
Maybe if I wasn’t such a coward I would be there already.
Why the hell am I such a **** up?
She screams my name again though
And I slip back into reality
It’s dinner time.
Last edited by sabby; Jan 26, 2009 at 09:16 AM.
Reason: administrative edit
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