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you know, i have heard about alts with different health issues and i have to say that i never have had anything like that. there have been a ton of psychosomatic illnesses since i was 9 years old. i had a vicious, satanic teacher who was so bad to us children they fired her at the end of the year and it was a whole year too late for me. i missed 33 days of school that year and i was so scared of her i think i could actually think myself sick i was so desperate to escape what she was doing to me psychologically, physically,, sexually and spiritually. she was a monster. keeping secrets made me sick, in so many ways. i had nightmare secrets and they just ate me up inside. the pain in my life was overwhelming and no one helped me ever. i was so alone then and i am so alone now both times while living in a family. i am not sure that i can ever be physically free, it's been so long. i want to change, but it is so hard to change after all these years of holding in and holding back. and the body suffers but how can i turn a channel that has been flowing one way for 50 somethin years and need to turn it a different way.
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