I have finally left the guy I was dating with...
I was in an abuse relationship with him, he wanted to control everything in my life for almost 3 years and even so, for him, I was not his girlfriend.
I could not ask anything about his life, about his going out with "friends" (he never introduced me to one of them!) or traveling "alone"...
I found out many lies he told me....many girls he met when he was with me....
Everytime I spent with him I was feeling worse and worse....I could not trust him at all....He was not giving me any affection or anything! I was just there to cook for him..... So last saturday I had enough of his lies and left....
And now I feel so bad!Really bad....like my life does not make sense at all....and that I was so stupid for leaving him...
He was the worst person in my life....my good friends always told me I should not take his bad attitude towards me....
I know they are right, but why do I feel like this? I thought I should feel relieved but is quite the opposite!
We have some common friends and I dont know what to say to them....probably they like him more than like me....I feel that I am losing so much by not being involved with him anymore....
I dont know what to do....I don't have many friends, I am not outgoing person.....for me is not easy to just start dating again (like it is for him...)
What should I do to take this pain out of my heart? It really hurts