I think I'm getting a bit better. Not much but a little bit. I was able to get out of the house a little over the weekend and that was nice. Mom took me to the store on Thursday and I stocked up on groceries which is a good thing because they are saying on the news that the next 3 days are going to be way nasty with an ice storm coming in. That won't do my depression any good as I won't be able to get out and go anywhere. I think before it hits though I may go to the library in the morning and get some DVD's to watch. I can't afford to go to Blockbuster so the library is the next best thing. I am almost out of cigarettes and don't have the money to get anymore so am trying to figure that out. I talked with my T about quitting but she thinks that with the way things are going with me right now and my stress level that quitting isn't a good thing for me to try right now and I think she is right. I have an idea of what I can do to get some so when I am out in the morning I will take care of that.

When mom and I were at Walmart on Thursday I got an exercise DVD and I plan on starting to add that to my routine this week and since it looks like I'm going to be iced in for a few days it will be good to get used to doing it. I got the Biggest Loser Boot camp DVD. I was doing my Pilates DVD but it wasn't getting my heart rate up and I know to burn calories you need to get your heart rate up so looked at different ones online and decided on this one plus it was on sale.

When I went for therapy on Thursday my T could tell that I was depressed because I wasn't wearing my contacts and didn't have any makeup on which is a huge thing for me. I had my glasses on and a baseball hat on and was just kind of there. I told her at least I had showered and it was all I could do to at least do that. It is taking all the energy I have to just get up and do the basic things but I am doing them and figure that if I do them every day that maybe they will get easier and easier.

Jan