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our bodies are innately sexual; we were made this way. however, the book you discovered was inappropriate information for your age and stage. it pushed you farther than you would have gone in just the actions of a small child, even a small child who was playing "doctor" with a friend.
the distress and guilt you feel are enough to make me ask you, is there more to your story than this? were there other experiences before this time, sexually, that increased your awareness or interest in sex.
when i was 3 years old, at the most 4, i acted out some sexual behavior with my little friend and when i looked up and saw that we were being observed a jolt of fear and shame hit me like a lightening bolt. i was being and had been sexually abused since infancy and so i had a precocious knowlege and experience of sex with a twist to it that i never should have had. as a small child i was not responsible or guilty but those who gave me premature information and experience were responsible and wrong.
i would encourage you to talk to someone you are certain you can trust to see about help to work this guilt out in a healthy way. if you all had had better supervision and direction in your play you may have never had enough time and aloneness to get into so much sexual behavior. you were just two little girls with curiosity and time on your hands. i would urge you to let go of the guilt or see if you can find some help to work it out until you can let it go. hugs,
leslie and the pixie chicks
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