Now I know tons of people are going to hate me for this...and i'm not sure if i'm prepared for some of the responces...I'm actually quite scared to say this....I cheated on my bf...I've cheated on an ex-bf before that as well. My ex-bf got really serious with me and wanted to get married (I was 18 and he was 24)...My family disliked him and I was not sure of my feelings for him) I told him the truth because I felt horrible about it...and I thought it was time to move on.

I am staying in a homestay with only guys. I am the only girl. This one boy who I was not attracted to at all...he continuously wanted to be with me...I would ignore him and tell him I had no feelings for him. and that I had a bf..he would rub up against me...and I would get really uncomfortable and yell at him to back off...I was uncomfortable with talking to the landlord about this...and I should ahve said something sooner but I never dealt with a situation like this before. I thought he would just stop if I ignored him. He would tell me that my relationship of 8 months was nothing...and that I am young and need to live my life. I said I cared for my bf very much...and that i wish he would just back off.

I was feeling lonely for a long while because my bf went to iran for a month...I have few friends and it was during the holidays...no family around. I thought we could jsut be friends anid I built a snow man with this guy...we played chess and he invited me into his room. I felt uncomfortable about this at first...but didn't see the harm if we were jsut hanging out like friends. It felt like I had an older sibling to hang out with...he kissed me while we were playing cards...I left him after that...and tried to ignore him.

I kept remembering how my ex-bf hoped I would never cheat on the next bf I had. It felt like it was happening all over again.

I felt like I had a companion for the first time. My feelings got confused and i started thinking that maybe I did have feelings for this guy. It felt like he cared for me and he wanted to spend time with me all the time. We slept together and After that...we cuddled and i realised my feelings were not true for him...he would try to carress me while we slept and I felt sick to my stomach...he would whisper things like "I love you" "you are so special to me" and "I want you to have the same feelings for me that I have for you"...it felt like he cared...but I missed my bf...and it didn't feel right. I yelled at him after that and told him I wish it never happened...I told him I love my bf...he slammed his door and I stayed in my room and locked the door. I was looking for a friend...I thought he was my best friend...but all he cares about is himself. he always asks me to come to his room or to hang out with him...I tell him I'm studying...and he gets upset...

My bf means a lot to me...and I wish this never happened...I don't know what to do