well, the mother's not talking with me again. she had a stress test scheduled and i told her that i didn't see any way that i could take her. it was scheduled for yesterday morning at 7 a.m. she has a husband who can take her, but she didn't want him to. anyhow, that would have required me getting up at 4:30, getting the baby up at 5:30 and driving on the interstate during rush hour and not knowing where i was going. i asked her to reschedule and she said she couldn't, even tho she hadn't tried. i said i didn't see how i could do that...at all. also, i was the first day back to work for me for a couple of hours.

well, eventually she asked her husband and he asked her to reschedule it! she was able to then...to a closer facility. under those circumstances, i don't think i was being selfish. she had another ride, she didn't even attempt to change it, and with the baby it would've been too much.

anyhow, now she's not talking so here's my chance to keep in place the non-communication that i've been wanting. she always makes me feel so guilty, responsible and sorry for her. i will NOT apologize. I will NOT call her. if she calls me, i'll speak with her a couple of times a week regarding the baby and her plans with him.

there's another point, if i'm not kissing her rosey red, she won't get him and that hurts him

there's my story...

thanks for listening,

kd