thankyou cantstopcrying what you said makes alot of sense,i really do need to change my way of thinking.But,and these days theres allways a but, i dont no how too,ive been trapped so long in this cycle of depression and sh,its like its all i no.I have no family or friends right now that i can call on to help me,so feel totally alone.Oh and it is record im 41.Please pm anytime