if so...what did you do?????

I have been seeing my T for 3 years.
She used to be so warm and caring....even to the point where she would "check on me" between sessions, and respond to every email I sent her.
And I really felt like she cared about "ME".

In the past 6 months, I feel like our "therapeutic relationship" has unraveled at the seams. My SIB increased and she began pushing DBT - which I agreed to look into...and I have and start the classes in Feb.

But now she doesn't respond to my emails and she seems so cold and clinical, even in session. I miss the "T" she used to be!! It seems as though all we do in session now is try to work out "our" relationship! I have told her that I think she has changed and I don't understand why.

During session last week, I asked her about her sudden lack of resonse via email and she said, "I have my reasons" - What does that mean????? So I got mad and she said, "It's easier for you to to leave when you're angry at me, isn't it?"

And I don't understand.......
Last week, I sent her an email telling her I needed a break - because I am frustrated, hurt and confused. Of course she didn't respond - and I'm sure she won't - so I guess it's over..... And I already miss her so much - I have moments when I want to take it back and moments when I think that time will make it easier.....

*SIGH* I don't think I can start over with anyone else - I feel hurt and vulnerable because I *trusted* her and now I feel like she betrayed my trust, just like my parents, and has validated my constant thought process that NO ONE can be trusted!

Has anyone else experienced this?
How did you handle it?

Grace