Thank you.. I've had an awful day today.. Everything's gone from bad to worse..

The bleeding's come back with a vengeance, it's pouring out, literally and it's more like period blood now, it's that much. God, what do I do? And then I completely broke down last night and today I forced myself not to cry, and punched myself a million times, pinched my chest so hard I think I cut myself I feel like such a bad person today and I feel like I'm doing everything wrong.. I screamed my head off too, ruined my voice.. This was because Connor and I were arguing.. yet again.. Because of my room being a mess, because I don't care if my room's a dump, I'm trying to sort my head out and spend as much time alone out of that room as possible.

So yeah, the pain's back, not so bad, but the bleeding's even worse. *sob* I can't take one more thing going wrong. I'm that ____ close to od'ing again