Ive been threatened with the same thing too. My mom says she will kill herself if i kill myself. The thuth is..... i kinda dont care, im sentimentally apathic....
But i think: i dont wanna see her in the other side with me.... The voices just wont stop, and been abused by your father is not something useful.. i want with all my heart to die... but they insist in being with me all the time... they dont even let me sleep alone. That just makes worse everything...