So the closest thing that I've had to a real friend just totally blew up in my face and it makes me realize how stupid I was... thinking I could seriously have a friend that cared about how I feel and would be patient with me. I'm so mad right now that I don't even know if I should even be posting.
About a week ago my friend whom I have known for about 7 years told me that if I wasn't even going to open up to him more and let him help me then he was going to give up on me. So me being to scared of people person that I am pushes him away and stopped talking to him for a week. I felt bad so on friday I called him to say I was sorry for freaking out and that I wanted to be friends under one condition... that he would be patient with me and let me take my time. He didn't answer.... so today I saw him online and started talking to him stating my conditions on rebuilding our friendship. Well one thing led to another and finally he ended up telling me that I was selfish for thinking that my problems with so much worse then some people in this world. When he didnt even KNOW what my problems were... I hadn't told him anything that has happened or anything about my life yet. He told me that I was "lame for thinking my life sucks so much" I don't understand how he seriously thought that this was going to HELP me. He swore that he cared about me and he swore that he wanted me to trust him.. He knows I have major trust issues and he just made them a million times worse... He told me that he is glad it's so easy to throw this relationship out the window... I just am so upset right now... I'm sorry about the rant. I guess I was stupid for thinking I could seriously have a real friend someday...