Sorry. Sorry, sorry, sorry. That's all I can say right now. We have spoken to each other and I've said that I'm going to try and see Benjamin, Connor's old English teacher, my old counsellor. He was quite helpful and I think if I have more time with him, I'll be able to move on a bit more. He works in whatever way i wish, even with music and art and such. So, I'm going to give him a try again. I will have to get hold of him somehow and speak to him about it.

I'm hoping that I'll be able to afford both going and seeing him, and seeing someone from SWEDA. :S It's all awkward and expensive.

Gah! My stomach's really playing up and I'm in pain It's really not helping my mood right now.

i do know those techniques, just need to put them into practise more often. I'm trying not to be alone. I know I isolate myself a lot, but I'm trying, really I am. You believe me, right? God, I've got college tomorrow. I'm a bit scared to be honest. I'm going to try and get some more research and some essay writing done in my hour off 2nd lesson, then more at lunch time. I need to get Luke's essay done. Then Heather's is just easy. Let's just hope my stomach is kind to me tomorrow

I'm in sooo much pain!!! Just want it all to go away.