Hi Jade1, I know that cutting is really difficult. I haven't done anything since March 6th, 2008, but last week, I blew it. I've been doing the samething as you now for a week and I called my DBT therapist when I had an ultimate crisis. Here's what she told me directly:
“Just stop, press the pause button like a movie because what has happened doesn’t matter, you’re in the now, change what is happening now and forget about the past”
“Cutting is really doing nothing; it’s a waste of time and is only going to ruin your life”
“Do something instead of cutting to get yourself out of the problem of feeling nothing, take a hot or cold shower, just don’t be in for too long”
I know that you're having a rough time, but I know that you can change. You are the one who controls you, not someone else. This relates to triggers, things may be upsetting you, but in reality, it is you who can make a difference. I hope that this advice is worth reading and can help you. I know that times are rough, but you can't let yourself beat you about it. Take the power in your hands and create the difference.