I am sorry that you are feeling this way. I hope that by now, you have figured out a way to make things better, and that way was healthy and you did not hurt yourself. I know that it is hard. I go through the same thing. Everyday is a struggle. It takes a lot to try to feel better that is the hardest part. PM me anytime, please! If you need someone to talk to, I will be there

good luck to you