I know what you mean. Ever since I became depressed I wondered if anyone would ever love me. After I was assaulted I wondered if I would ever feel safe enough to open up to anyone and if they would ever be willing to deal with my problems. Then I thought that if they were wonderful enough to do those things then they would be too good for me and would be better off with someone else. What I try to remind myself is that with the platonic friends I have now, I have found them to be very supportive. I try to remember that I would want them to come to me for support and that they in return (as they are my friends) would want me to come to them. I try to remember that while my current friends are platonic there may be someone out there for me who would be willing to put up with my stuff and love me. While I am single I hope that sometime I will find someone right for me.
I want that quick solution too!
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