i saw my 1st therapist for about a year. I never felt I connected with him, he seemed a bit cold and clinical. There were times I felt he was a angry person, but felt he was doing an okay job. Didn't know any better. Well one session he basically started out by asking questions that had nothing to do with my therapy and when I answered he said are you sure? THen at the end he said in so many words he thought I was not beeing honest about some homework he gave me and in a very controled way lost his temper almost like a teacher would who is very frustrated and doesn't believe what his student was saying. When I left I felt degraded, frustrated and a failure. I didn't live up to his expectations. I did not show him any anger when I left I waited til I got to the car. I couldn't go back. To make a long story short I found a new T she is much more nuturing and it is a better fit. I never went back. I did cancel my other appts. I finally after a couple months wrote him a letter telling him how I felt and why. I guess he could care less/ or thought he was right in what he said becasue he never contacted me. After getting through that experience with the help of my T I do know it wasn't me and that he over stepped his boundries. I never had closure with him and there are times when I wish I had but I know I am a better person when I got him out of my life. So I understand how you feel. You totally trust someone with all your deepest thoughts and feelings and it feels like they push you away. I think if I had an opportunity to email I probably would have instead of waiting 2 months to write a letter. I hope this works out for you. It would be very difficult to go back to a T who pushed me away or shut me out. Good luck to you