Thank you all for your kind and comforting words, especially you Tgrs........ it almost gives me some inner peace and I feel like there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
I'm trying to learn as much as I can about this disorder and it is very complex. But I love this man dearly and I made a commitment to him " in sickness and in health" and plus we have a 1 1/2 year old little girl who absolutely adores him and vice versa.
I pray everyday and I ask God to give me the patience, understanding, knowledge and most important...compassion. I hope I can get to know each and everyone of you.

Thank you once again!