One thing shirly ... you can't control his actions and what it is he's doing ...his lies ...whatever he decides to post etc.

You're only driving yourself crazy and expending energy that is exhausting yourself.

You can only account for yourself. You know what happened. You're having a hard time understanding and maybe feeling guilty and deciphering what all the particulars ...blame etc.

That's why your going for help to make sense out of it all.

Your gonna take a long time to get help for yourself and then try to do the best you can with that and for your children.

Unfortunately, he'll be around because of the connection you share with your children. He's got problems, but you can't change his actions and what he chooses to do. Only what you choose to do and you do have choices.