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yesterday was the first day i actually ate a normal amount of food just a little less than my therapist wants me to eat and well i was so surprised to find that i actually didn't gain the few lbs i was afraid i would from starting to eat again but i actually lost a 1 1/2 lbs it made me realize that maybe i don't have to starve myself to loose the weight i feel i need to loose but to just eat a healthy balance and i have been working on my feelings of not deserving food and atleast right now i can actually say that i feel i deserve to eat like everyone else that is not to say the tape recorder in my head wont come back but for today i am at peace and i am happy
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i was diagnosed with DID 4 years ago although sometimes i deny this disorder.
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