the marks on your back - it would be good to let your dr see them - just to make sure they are ok -
you say it would be good to cut the pain out - unfortuantely you cant -
are you seeing a therapist? they can help you to deal with the pain if its emotional pain - if its physical pain please discuss it with your dr - there are lots of different pain meds and some work better than others - if yours are not working - time for a change maybe.
Take care and I hope things improve for you soon. P7
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet