Is there a way you could write out some questions and find out just what it is that you are afraid you would find out. There are so many things that we can learn from all these people's different perspectives. I think much of your misery could be traced to the presssure felt by all of the different parts. it is like you are living in a dark room together, but if you can just gradually turn on the lights and allow them all to speak and all to be heard and I believe that the distress and turmoil inside will begin to ease up as all parts feel accepted, respected and acknowledged for their part in the life they shared. one for all and all for one!!! the more bonded we become with all of our different parts the more we can find a way to come to an actual "meeting of minds" that will naturally lead us to a more cohesive internal state of being that will be best for us all. sorry, don't mean to ramble on.

leslie and pixies