yep have found myself lost in the moment in therapy then realised i have collapsed down in the chair hugging my knees - and like Chaotic - I have slowly straightened myself up and T has pretended not to notice -(nothng to see here - everything normal! ) I have also found myself collapsed to the side - and with my arms so tightly wrapped around myself that I almost couldnt breath - I think its a protective and supportive move we give ourselves when things get really tough and we are lost in the moment. try to cntrol my body language - but I often find myself hugging myself when I am really upset - I can keep my outside looking calm but I cant stop from tapping or holding my arms if im upset - so I guess it gets out somehow!

The not making eye contact - I can probably count the times I HAVE made eye contact - I think i look away so I wont see T's reaction - I am often afraid if Im saying somthing that is hurting me that I will see a look of eek shes really crazy - or disgust - or you are sooo wasting my time with such a small thing - just get over it.! - and also I think I get lost in the moment and stare off in a certain direction to focus my thoughts......

So you are definately not alone!