OrangeBlossom,
Yes, I was absolutely exhausted, sad and lost. I cried harder at the funeral than I have cried in years. It was helpful to get that part out of me, but I know there will be times when the sadness and sense of loss will come over me. I just keep telling myself that at least Mom had a quiet and quick death. There was no wasting illness, and we had no issues to resolve between us.
Please, please, my friend, email me if you need to communicate with some who truly understands.