I have been trying to figure out if I have bp, sometimes it seems to describe me perfectly while other times I'm not so sure. There are times when I am so depressed that I don't want to get out of bed much less talk to anybody and other times when I can't stop fidgeting. I don't really bounce off walls but I get very antsy and irritable. I'm not sure what to do, I can't keep going like this, I have two young boys and I don't want them growing up thinking I'm completely insane, but I can't afford to go see a doc.. Can anyone help? Please!?